This past month has been a very trying time for me. Losing connection with the the sister I have been close to for several years is really hard for me. Working multiple jobs and trying to move and pay bills and rent and never being loved the way I want is starting to become a serious ordeal for me. I’m upset, I break down periodically, my relationships are all suffering because I’m not good enough or strong enough or too independent or depending too much. I just plain suck as a person and I really fail at life. I just can’t deal with it anymore. I hate my life. I don’t want to be here anymore.