Sick and Sad

Being sick is no fun at all. Having the cold, wheezing your lungs out, running a fever, throwing up, being unable to eat what you like, go where you like, do what you like - being sick is the absolute worst. Being chronically ill with a sickness that disables you is one of the most … Continue reading Sick and Sad

Soul tired

Bone weary, soul tired, depressed - take your pick, I've been all of the above for several weeks now. Nothing I did helped. No amount of sleep (or lack thereof) has been enough to energize me recently. I am not motivated at all. I simply wish I could hibernate like a bear forever. In this … Continue reading Soul tired

Unwelcome Memories

Ever get blitz attacked by unwelcome memories? Ever find yourself perfectly content, enjoying your morning, doing your thing but then suddenly something - a phrase, a smell, an article on the web - reminds you of an event you have done your best to put behind you and you are suddenly overwhelmed by a deluge … Continue reading Unwelcome Memories

Happy Pills

Recently, while visiting my doctor for unrelated reasons, I was given a depression screening questionnaire. I 'passed' the 'test' with flying colors. My doctor recommended I take anti-depressant/anti-anxiety medication. For a long time, I was pretty prejudiced against anti-depressants and for good reason. I had seen one of my relatives turn into a medically induced … Continue reading Happy Pills

Lonely and Alone

Recently, I've been spending a lot of time feeling lonely and alone. This, in turn, makes me feel like a failure, someone who was easily forgotten and possibly replaced, someone with no prospects of a normal life, someone who will never amount to anything, someone who will die alone and unloved. I miss being in … Continue reading Lonely and Alone