Having a serious anxiety attack feels like a terrible and new experience all over again. It has been a long time since the anxiety and depression held at bay by medication and strong, supportive relationships filtered through it all and snuck in a back door I didn’t know was open. I didn’t even know I … Continue reading Anxious & Depressed – Covid Edition
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Scared to go to Therapy
I realized recently that I am actively avoiding going to therapy. I don't know exactly why I'm doing this but I am. I have a session coming up soon and have been trying to script exactly what I will and won't say to my therapist during that session. Why am I doing this? I have … Continue reading Scared to go to Therapy
Happy Pills
Recently, while visiting my doctor for unrelated reasons, I was given a depression screening questionnaire. I 'passed' the 'test' with flying colors. My doctor recommended I take anti-depressant/anti-anxiety medication. For a long time, I was pretty prejudiced against anti-depressants and for good reason. I had seen one of my relatives turn into a medically induced … Continue reading Happy Pills
Broken Dreams
This post began as an ode to a broken past and has ended as something else entirely. Anyone of us who has dared to dream has definitely found obstacles on the way to achieving said dreams. Some of us never make it to the 'achievement' part of that dream because we give up along the … Continue reading Broken Dreams
Day 30
I spent the weekend watching Supernatural, doing chores, and going out to watch Monster's University and having dinner with friends. It was a really good way to spend some seriously Hot days. Ramadan starts next week so that's going to be a whole new challange to add to my days. Work has been busy and … Continue reading Day 30
Day 4
Another day begins and brings with it fresh winds of relief intermingled with grains of despair. As always, I wonder why I am here. What is my purpose in creation and in the grand scheme of life? What kind of cog am I in the machine known as the universe? What am I here for? … Continue reading Day 4
Day 1
I have realized that I am sinking in to the depths of depression. I have been there before and it was the most miserable time of my life. It isn't something I want to experience now or every again. However, it seems to have snuck up on my and now all I can do it … Continue reading Day 1
