Lost

If you have been brave enough to live, you have not only failed repeatedly, you have lost much over and over, and you have been lost in the forest of endless possibilities and rocky paths. Sometimes, you are lost because you don't know where you want to go or who you want to be. Currently, … Continue reading Lost

Incoherent and Irrational

A bout of depression has struck me once more. I feel incoherent and irrational today. I keep trying to go back in time and make sense of things. I keep on trying to figure it out - where did I make my first mistake and when did I make my last one? Sometimes, I regret … Continue reading Incoherent and Irrational

Death by crying?

For the past month, I have cried almost every day. Sometimes it's because I'm failing all my classes in grad school. Sometimes because I'm an inadequate teacher. Sometimes because I'm a sucky daughter and an absentee sister. But mostly because I feel unattractive, undesirable, unneeded and sometimes unwanted. Being an unneccessary existence sucks. Being a … Continue reading Death by crying?