I realized recently that I am actively avoiding going to therapy. I don't know exactly why I'm doing this but I am. I have a session coming up soon and have been trying to script exactly what I will and won't say to my therapist during that session. Why am I doing this? I have … Continue reading Scared to go to Therapy
Tag: fear
My Inner Landscape
Craggy and worn like a broken rock on the shoreline of a tumultuous sea, deep and unexplored like the darkest depths of the ocean, teeming with both horrific and indescribable creatures, with enough pressure to crumble mountains to dust - that is my current inner landscape. I alternate between anger and depression. The withdrawal symptoms … Continue reading My Inner Landscape
Day 21
People's deep hatred of my religion deeply disturbs me. It reminds me that I, as a Muslim American, will never really be accepted by those I call friends. People from my ethnicity won't accept me because I am too "American" or "westernized". People of other backgrounds will be afraid of me because they fear what … Continue reading Day 21
